Life

Right here, it's midnight. Suppose to be a little piggy having a baby sleep in the coldest night.

But what, ton of assignments, researching and readings. And the point, I can't get into it. That's all.

Am I really can support myself for 2 years study? Not that far, two years but kinda hard.
I doesn't means that works it's better ways for me, I do enjoy my life now, seem so, I don't know.

A little bit struggle, dilemma, confuse, frustrated, maybe upset too. (Negative thinking though)
Sometimes do think should I go for psychologic? I'm the psychological in the end. I can clearly analyse for myself what and what. But this driving me crazy too! Knowing too much and understand yourself is doesn't means a good thing. I means sometimes I rather to be a dumb. A real dumb.

Thinking of suicide too? Hell no maybe yes? See, I have a problem, and I don't know how to release. Shopping? Time wasted, money wasted but I do love shopping. Yoga? I did registered, just a mad I haven't got it.

Motivation doesn't lead me sometimes. I needs more and more and more, just can't get enough for myself.

I know myself well, I have a point but I don't it become argument. It's actually a virtual, lecturer like argument, examination likes arguments, and I have a point just never show up.

I believe that people surround me kinda influence. "A", can I describe them as peaceful and harmony? They're just ------- this way. HARMONY TEAM

However B, I quite enjoy with them so far, it's a good time for me to improve my language skills, and it does.

Between both of two gangs, I have become a cheerful follower and silent leader. Sucks right?

I means, come on, what kinds of life.

By the way, I haven't mention my youngest brother is still enjoying his game. How relax huh?

2 weeks to go, hopefully.