Who am I?

Hi, there?

Im Tracy, but I dont know myself anymore..

I hurt myself, even try to cut myself..
I cry for nonsense. I jealous for nothing..
When I look at the mirror, I dont know who is that..
It wasnt myself..

I look at the eyes, there is no one..

I want to cry, loudly..
But I wasnt allow to be..

I want to suicide..
But I find no reason..

I being ridiculous all the time..
Who am I?

I want myself back..